Friday, November 27, 2009
I like being an elf, in case I never mentioned that before. I decided on one recent SL episode to go invisible to Daddy so I could explore and visit some of the Elven communities. My visits were quite short, though, because on weekends, lag is especially bad. But Daddy did know know when I was online, because every time I logged in, my collar let him know, with him being the owner and all. I felt a bit bad about the subterfuge, or the poor and sloppy attempt at it, but it does sort of go both ways. Even as my online status was transmitted out, his was also made known to me through the same collar script. Even when he showed he was offline, the collar did not lie. He was online. I was totally fine with this as I just assumed that he had other women around that he played with and I happened to be the latest toy who was hot and then not.
And so it has turned out rather awkwardly.
Thing is, I was so busy being a slut that I had forgotten about being an elf and I was missing something. So in order to address this need, I created a male elven alt.
Alts (alternate identities) are pretty common in SL, and it is not discouraged. In fact, it is somewhat encouraged as more characters mean more accessories which means more money for Linden Labs. In fact, alts are the best, most efficient way of creating more revenue because since they presumably wouldn't be on at the same time they don't contribute to lag while they add revenue and variety.
Of course my male and female did become friends so that a few things could be shared between them asynchronously, like cash and locations of places. I'm not going to get into my alt right now, but having him made it possible to go around and do more things without the entanglement of worrying about Daddy's feelings. Plus, my male side was not as concerned about getting fucked as my female side which made SL much more relaxing. He was sort of like an older brother to my she-elf who could sort of look out for me.
Um..that's starting to sound complicated. Nevermind.
I had my male alt look up Daddy's profile, which you can do for anyone whose name you know. And lo and behold, it had been recently updated. Apparently Daddy had found a new sub and lover in SL and RL and was proclaiming it to the world through his profile. Thing was...it wasn't me!
Imagine my shock and surprise at THAT! I have no problems with being the guy's mistress and might be keen on having a threesome with him and his main squeeze. But for several days, he has been avoiding me. And his name is not on my friends list. but the collar does not lie and neither does his profile. I haven't tried to IM him, but I really should before things get too out of hand. If they haven't already.
Once I realized that he had a sub who he was apparently devoted and loyal to (maybe I'm being naïve here), I wondered what would become of me. I mean the house and boat and everything is nice, but they were totally unplanned and I'm willing to give all that up. Hard to imagine him paying rent for me every month if he's not going to use me! But I had given him the main keys to my collar and THAT bothered me.
You see, once you have a primary owner, only he can unlock it or designate secondary owners. I'm fine wearing the thing all the time, but I'm not so fine not being able to play with others if I'm being sidelined. I know...not very submissive of me! But I want to play, and I thought I should have the option of picking new playmates if my old one has no use for me anymore. And I was getting annoyed that the collar was forever notifying him of my status (and me of his) every time I was logging in. A person could login a dozen or more times as it isn't unusual for SL to lag, cause crashes or otherwise freeze up or kick you off. I can only imagine how annoying (or not) it was for him.
So I took a rather radical step. I reset the collar. What that did was basically activate a script that said that I was running away from my master and then I had no owners anymore. That's what I wanted, at least at this time, but I need to IM Daddy and see where we are. Closure or none, I'm okay with him as it is only a game and he seems to have found some happiness in it. I don't want him to think he's hurt me or needs to protect me. Things were intense between us for a bit and that was thrilling. I learned a lot during and through all this mini-drama.
I did close the night out flirting, friending and chatting up a fellow who actually had the same last name as me after I had changed back into my hot elf clothes. I did try to TP him to one of my adult hangouts (he had never been to any adult sites before but was keen to try) but for some reason we couldn't get his settings to work right. No big deal. I don't have to fuck ALL my male friends! Ha!
I did have one embarrassing episode in the airport recently. I was there, chatting up Airport Guy who pretty much lives there. The lag is so awful, I have no idea why he does it, except I'm sure he has met a lot of people and has a lot of friends there. Anyway, a rather large headless dragon was skulking about and getting people with his tail, so I thought I would use a bit of elven magic to burn his big butt. However, soon the entire place was engulfed in the huge fireball and the lag had affected everything so badly that I had no control over it. No one could see anything and it took several tries before I could finally TP out and extinguish the flames. I didn't make any friends with THAT stunt!
I did manage to locate and adopt a sort of home-away-from-home, I think, or at least a more vanilla place, which would be the Elf Wood Club. It's very small and simple, which is why I like it, and the people I've met there have been very friendly, even when I was dressed entirely too slutty. Or maybe they liked it that I was dressed too slutty! Horny male elves!Haha! But I might try inviting a few of my more vanilla human friends there sometime.
Thus ended my very short life as a kept elf mistress.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I had many mixed feelings about the new house. It was amazingly flattering, but at the same time scary. I was not interested in taking this out-of-world, but this whirl wind left me dazed. Daddy had been nothing but kind and generous and I tried to return my gratitude. Which means that we met at the house several times, and we fucked every which way on all the furniture. I spent a lot of time shopping for good looking outfits, and he seemed to enjoy these, especially the boots but also the rest as well. He does have a sense of style that I think exceeds mine.
Having a place to go besides downtown, shops, clubs and the airport has a lot of advantages, because I can escape the lag of these busy places and try on the various outfits that I buy. But the place can also be quite lonely as there are not any neighbors close by. And it is always snowy here. And I haven't figured out how to get the boat to work!
This last time Daddy and I got together, it wasn't a terribly drawn out encounter. Basically he had a good time fucking me while I was suspended above the bed and then had to go rather quickly. I was totally fine with that, as I was getting a bit restless for something different. Maybe a different guy or a different experience. I'm not sure which.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
My fascination with trying out a bit more of being an elf continued when next I logged on. I actually started out at my favorite BDSM mall, which has been functioning as my home base as of late. I was hanging upside down on a light pole, while looking for elf clubs to join and places to go. So when I TP'd to an elven village, every time my avatar moved, it did a cartwheel as if it couldn't decide which side was up. The residents were exceedingly friendly and welcoming but I had to go back to the mall to see if I could fix my cartwheel tic.
When I first logged on, Daddy was not on, but by this time he was and he IM'd me, asking what I was up to. I was literally just hanging out tied to the pole. He then said he had something for me. Well, if there is one way to hook me, it is with curiosity. And as it turns out, I had something for him, too. I had the RLV working in my Windows partition. So after a few minutes, he gave me a TP invite and I was off!
I landed in a place that at first looked like an arctic version of some of the clubs we had been to. I could hear a fire crackling in the background and Daddy was there tottaly dressed in white. He was totally upstaging me, fashion-wise!
I looked around and the room was filled with wonderful bondage toys. So I figured this was what he had for me. But he had more. Much more. He alluded to this being our place. Our house. And then dumped 2500L$ into my account.
I should have done some sort of fainting animation, because it's exactly how I felt. SL realestate is not necessarily cheap, and it certainly isn't free. I've never really looked into it that much, because I always figured that I would just be wherever I would be. He had clearly put some effort and resources into this place. And a great deal of thought as to my tastes. All the furniture involved being tied and chained, with all sorts of fancy and in-depth animations to go with it. I begged him to leash me up and give me the tour, which he did. And then we tried out a few of the fun toys.
Oh, and the place is on the water with a yacht. Yes, there is a yacht involved. He spared no expense, here!
It was wild and exciting. He was pleased with the RLV, but it does have some trade-offs. For one thing, the RLV makes me a bondage/chain magnet. After strapping me down and doing me, when we got up I could move but my collar chain wanted to stay fastened to the toy. It's as if it is always looking for a place to get hooked, and this place had plenty! Another problem was that since the RLV only works in my Windows environment (there is a version for Linux, but I haven't gotten it to work) I am subject to enormous amounts of lag. Many of the poses and sessions were absolutely hot, but the lag was robbing much of the atmosphere. Walking, moving talking...everything in ultra-slow motion!
He finally said he had to go, and I had to go, too. But after he left, I could not resist looking everywhere and trying out all the toys and investigating everything. Plus I played with my elven ring. The snow made a great backdrop for many of the animations and effects.
I'm still in a daze over this development. Things are kinda moving fast! In about a week I've gone from being a total nOOb to being a kept woman! Daddy has never been anything but kind and generous. I'm lucky in that I could have ended up with some sort of griefer who could have abused me. While Daddy does know much more about Second Life, he's apparently new to a lot of BDSM. He commented that he was getting a lot kinkier since meeting me. He also didn't know what a RLV was, which is a pretty standard feature on most BDSM equipment. Before he left, I promoted him from secondary owner to primary owner of my collar, so now he has pretty much as much control as he wants. It will be interesting to see how he exercises it.
Feelings: a lot of astonishment that this guy has apparently sunk a lot into our relationship, such that it is. I am totally flattered by the attention that he lavishes on me. And yet, I wonder if he's really assuming the role or if he's getting a bit deeper into it than I would like. I see this as role play and thought he did too, per an earlier conversation. I think he would say that he is, but if so he his truly playing it masterfully! Because he is playing like a man who is becoming smitten with me. Either way, it seems that I'm playing my end of it to the hilt and like it. But when does it become less of a game and more damaging or dangerous? Am I going too far in messing with this guy's feelings?
These are things I'm thinking about, as well as my need for sleep. Leading a life plus a second life is a lot of work and takes a lot of time!
Friday, November 13, 2009
Honestly, I sometimes wonder how you RL girls do it all! It is such a bother changing clothes and making sure everything matches and is coordinated and then there's making sure the collar, boots and cuffs are on properly and locked...such a chore! But perhaps it's a bit of an artistic way of self-expression. This, I can relate to somewhat, and that is really what having an avitar is all about.
The next time I logged on, I was not in the mood to be submissive at all. Daddy has a way of bringing that on, however irresistibly, and this night I wanted to be an elf warrior princess, again. So I put my old elven duds on, and Tp'd around Bay City and other points. I made a couple of purchases for my elven side, including a new Elf Warrioress costume that is sexy, slutty and hot! The bad news is that I cannot wear a cloak while wearing my collar. Or if there is a way, I need a clue about now.
I also purchased the Elven Ring of Power, Eliste. it is a massively cool ring that enables me to do a bunch of neat little effects, including summoning a dragon, summoning fish, arrows, fire, a flying pig, a giant fish, various emoticons as well as rez/unrezz and do stuff with other objects. It is totally awesome to emit fire, ice or just a shower of snow or flowers or all of the above at the same time. I'm not sure what I can do to other people. I tried it on one poor girl/dragon and I might have TP's her into some sort of endless void. She interpreted it as being kicked out and was able to come back, so no harm. I just need to be careful, and try to find someone to practice on. Daddy is an awfully good sport and might go for it.
But I wasn't terribly nice this time out, essentially taking my IM off the hook so he couldn't tell when I was online. I suppose he could have still IM'd me, but he didn't and I didn't IM him. I just needed some time to explore on my own and be a she-elf more that a slut-elf. For what it's worth, I ended up going back to slut mode when I met this girl at the BDSM shop. She insisted on seeing my elf-self and then showed me her dragon self. She wasn't much of a dragon, actually, more like a baby dinosaur. And she was talking through a translator and gave me tale of woe where she was rejected by humans and dragons alike and felt very alone. What could I do, except give her/it a hug? No wonder she wanted to see someone more elvish than human.
I then went back to the city, after changing back into my submissive elf-self, and chatted a bit with Airport Guy. Remember him? But he was hanging in the airport, which is lag-hell, and even I ended up getting kicked out eventually. But I think I'd like to try him out a time or two just for fun. Perhaps I'm too promiscuous for a SL relationship like what seems to be going on with Daddy.
Friday, November 6, 2009
We did have a chance for a brief little session, when he showed up wearing a blue cape, and we went to a dungeon which had all sorts of various toys and props. I think my favorite was being nailed while tied from the pole. The bondage and animations all hit my buttons very nicely.
After that, I decided that I needed to change outfits, especially the boots. I did a bit more shopping for red outfits. He came online while I was still trying to put my outfit together, and when he TP'd me to his location, he was also “dressed” in red! We went around some sort of gothic building and engaged in a little play, but this time he was lagging very heavily. I was also having trouble keeping up with him because I wasn't leashed. The encounter concluded in the bathroom, of all places, where he fucked me from behind while grabbing my hair. It really was absolutely hot. I used that line from Unfaithful, where Diane Lane's character is being fucked in the bathroom by her young lover (while her friends are just outside having lunch) and she sighs into his ear, “You always take me to the best places!” Daddy didn't quite get it, but it was still totally hot until SL totally froze us in that position. And that was the end.
Well, I did decide to visit a club that I had visited during my second visit to SL that I hadn't really blogged about. Back then, the place was under construction and I met a guy who was doing the building and we chatted for a bit. This night, when I went back, there was actually less development in the area, but there was a club with an American flag out front. There were all sorts of “Help Wanted” signs out front as I walked into an otherwise deserted club. Inside there was some shopping spaces as well as the club area with a bunch of poles presumably for the hired dancers. Each had a tip jar near it. I went up and availed myself of the pole and became an instant pole dancer! Ha! Perhaps I could have a career in SL after all!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
The next time I logged on, I redid my look, putting on a pair of those boots I bought using Daddy's money. And sure enough, they have many of the same animations as my collar, so I enjoyed that. I then went shopping for awhile. I had been cruising many shopping/BDSM sites for quite awhile when Daddy IM'd me. Did I want to see him! Yes! But even more I wanted him to see me!
He teleported me into a store where he was, and the leash automatically appeared. That thing quickly gets me into subspace, as he drags me around the store! Funnily enough I had been to this place earlier in the evening.
The first thing he noted when he saw me was...my boots. And yes, they were pretty awesome, but he is definitely a foot/boot guy. Everytime we go shopping, he goes directly to the extreme footwear section. And promptly dumps 2500 L$ into my account! I'm not much of a fashionista, but footwear has got to be one of my weakest areas. And now I have a Master who is generous but wants some major investment into footwear. And then that means coordinating the rest of the outfit with whatever I put on my feet. I have no idea how you girls do it, especially if you don't have a sugar daddy of your own!
But make no mistake, it was a lot more than just looking at my boots. He choose an odd looking chair and I draped myself over it. And then he was fucking me pretty much every way to Sunday!
And this went on for a long time. Now this was fun for quite awhile, but it did go a bit long, IMO. But I tried to keep up. If you look at the background, you'll notice the sex rooms and furniture. That is where he leash-dragged be next, and this was a bit more my style where I could be tied and bound while he fucked me. After a bit, I figured out how to work the bed and was able/allowed to change positions and was able to even follow all the fucking with some nice cuddling.
It was getting late, and I had to go, but he showered me with a gob of money and then TP'd me to another BDSM shopping place which specialized in, you guessed it, boots! But they also had collars and restraints, so I was pretty good, I did buy a few pairs of the “Fuck Me” boots. I guess I'll find out if they live up to their namesake!LOL!